The beginning of a new chapter

Well I am officially a full time mom. My last day at American Express was July 1st. It was a very bittersweet day. I have been waiting so long to be home with Wyatt but I was sad to say goodbye to my friends at work. The people I work with became more than coworkers but actual friends and I will miss seeing them daily. I think they know who I really am, I mean we spent hours upon hours together day after day how could they not? I am glad I was able to experience being a full time working mom. I think I will appreciate my time home more. Being a mom is hard but I would dare say being a working mom is ten times harder. So far I've only been home a week and its been refreshing. Wyatt has been so fun. He says and does the cutest things. He is no longer a baby but a little boy. It's amazing how fast he's grown. I also want to say how blessed we have been to have my cousin Sheri and Matts mom to watch Wyatt while I worked. We couldn't have had better care takers for our little guy. He has learned so many things from being with my cousin Sheri and his best friends Morgan and Annie. I give them most of the credit for him being so well spoken and such a happy boy. Here are a couple videos I got this week that I'm glad I didn't miss.

Buttle Family Photos

October festivities

And now Deep Thoughts by Kim

I keep looking at my blog and thinking I should update it. I don't really know what to say. I guess I will just type and see what happens. I am thinking I should write about the summer but honestly I can't think of anything worth noting aside from the fact that our good friends Smether moved to Chicago and we miss them dearly. Wyatt is growing like a weed. He is so smart and busy. He's talking up a storm. Everyday he says something new. His little voice is so sweet. He wants to be down and into everything and anything. We're working on discipline but are not sure what is appropriate and one look into those big brown eyes you fold.

Matt got a new job in April. His employer sent him to Pennsylvania for a sales training. His superiors were not sure if they should send him because he was so new to the industry (life insurance). During his week long training he was also judged and tested. Matt came home #1 in his class. He beat out colleagues who have been in the industry for years. If you know Matt this doesn't surprise you. I am so proud of him. He is such a hard worker and I know someday soon I will be able to be a stay at home mom because of it.

For me, this has been the weirdest year of my life. So many changes along with heart ache. I have watched many people I love suffer. I have felt insecurities that I thought I would never feel. I have felt betrayal, anger and confusion. I'm not sure what is meant to be learned from this. Maybe nothing. Maybe it's just others using their free agency. I am thankful for the health of my family. I love Matt and Wyatt with every fiber of my being. I am too exhausted to do anything else but am looking forward to see where the future takes us.

Happy Anniversary!

Matt and I got married 5 years ago yesterday. I love my Matty.

Just trying to catch up

Las Vegas the end of April

 

Wyatt loved the king size bed and fluffy bedding

We went to the Aquarium at Mandalay Bay

Las Vegas was a pretty fun trip although if I never go back I'm okay with it. It's a pretty evil city if you ask me. I got a stomach flu the last day. The drive home was awful. Thank heavens for plastic grocery sacks and a sympathetic husband.

We went to Hogle Zoo May 19th. Matt took the day off. It was sort of a birthday day for him.

He is really cute. Isn't he?

Wyatt learned his monkey sounds. He loved the monkeys.

Lunch at the zoo. There's nothin like kickin back to a sandwich with the odor of the animals nearby.

This is my favorite face that Wyatt pulls. It's hilarious.

He loves to empty the cupboards.

He doesn't even try to hide his mischief.

We clean this up a few times a day.

He sneaks the remote.

Dad dressed him for the big World Cup game between USA and England.

Ahh Wednesday...

Wyatt turned 1 on April 7th. I will let Matt post the birthday pictures on his blog. It's amazing how fast time flies. It has been the greatest and hardest year of my life. Working and trying to be a mom has been extremely difficult for me.  I find myself envying those women who get to stay home with their babies. I know it's near impossible to be the mom that they are. I find myself coming home from work trying to be a perfect mom, wife and homemaker in 4 hours while dead tired. And when I don't do it I go to bed feeling guilty and bitter. I cant feel completely sorry for myself though there is one magic day I find myself waiting for and that's Wednesdays. I am so blessed to have Wednesdays off. I get a taste once a week of being a full time mom and regaining my sanity... its wonderful.